L*I*F*E
my TWO lives:
LIFE 1:
- go to work 9-5, plus work all hours of the nite as well
- sleep at 3-4am, wake up about 30 mins before i'm supposed to be at work
- struggle to pay off all that credit card debt, due to all my expensive "hobbies"
- love mini skirts, high heels, cute lil tops, and SHOES
- spend hours on my hair - curling it, straightening it, braiding it
- love to drink and get crunk! ...every night if i could :)
- love to club
- love attention from men (sorry L. :) )
- hate school
- have no passion or motivation to do anything
- lazy
- lady in the street & a freak in the bed :)
- love my man
............................well, you get the point:)
LIFE 2:
- i *apparently* work 9-5, sleep at 10pm, wake up at 7am
- have no debt and never did anything outside of school and work
- wear nice "sensible" clothes like baggy jeans and big t-shirts from the 80s
- hair? it's tied back in a pony all the time..or in "shuruba" (Amharic word for single braids)
- drink? hmmm... maybe a glass of wine if i'm FORCED into it
- club? that's for BAD people... very bad people ... "vagabonds" and "prostitutes"
- i'm still 10, and i get shy talkin to men
- love my school books, love to study
- very career oriented - i will be *somebody* one day! (ie: a doctor or engineer)
- hard working
- SEX? :o ......what's that? we don't talk about that.. we're not like THOSE people!!
- L. doesn't exist in this life :(
.........................................this life isn't even real
My dad's coming tonite... to visit for 3 weeks... i look forward to seeing him ..i haven't seen him since the last time i was home - Dec '03!
But, why must I keep my two lives separate?
I'm tired of living a lie.....
LIFE 1:
- go to work 9-5, plus work all hours of the nite as well
- sleep at 3-4am, wake up about 30 mins before i'm supposed to be at work
- struggle to pay off all that credit card debt, due to all my expensive "hobbies"
- love mini skirts, high heels, cute lil tops, and SHOES
- spend hours on my hair - curling it, straightening it, braiding it
- love to drink and get crunk! ...every night if i could :)
- love to club
- love attention from men (sorry L. :) )
- hate school
- have no passion or motivation to do anything
- lazy
- lady in the street & a freak in the bed :)
- love my man
............................well, you get the point:)
LIFE 2:
- i *apparently* work 9-5, sleep at 10pm, wake up at 7am
- have no debt and never did anything outside of school and work
- wear nice "sensible" clothes like baggy jeans and big t-shirts from the 80s
- hair? it's tied back in a pony all the time..or in "shuruba" (Amharic word for single braids)
- drink? hmmm... maybe a glass of wine if i'm FORCED into it
- club? that's for BAD people... very bad people ... "vagabonds" and "prostitutes"
- i'm still 10, and i get shy talkin to men
- love my school books, love to study
- very career oriented - i will be *somebody* one day! (ie: a doctor or engineer)
- hard working
- SEX? :o ......what's that? we don't talk about that.. we're not like THOSE people!!
- L. doesn't exist in this life :(
.........................................this life isn't even real
My dad's coming tonite... to visit for 3 weeks... i look forward to seeing him ..i haven't seen him since the last time i was home - Dec '03!
But, why must I keep my two lives separate?
I'm tired of living a lie.....
posted by Diamond Princess at 12:15 PM
4 Comments:
Good Luck with your dad. Hope all goes well. I totally "feel" you on the two lives thing. I know what it's like.
Mona
i think we'll always have another life that can't be totally revealed to the parents. (like... liking having s*x with our partner while the parents... well, hard to think of what they'd think!) and we should only quote 10% of what we actually drank. =P but having such different lives to the point of having to hide regular activities is unhealthy :( and should be curtailed. i think when we marry and have kids, then, you know, they understand that whole process.
on a different note, i know how you feel like you haven't "lived" enough in some ways but you know how i hold you and mona as having lived (perhaps in a unique-r way than svh and the o.c. and such). this weekend, (i think) i finally get to do as you do and have done : chill, drink at a friend's place, maybe head out, no overhanging responsibility to be home and in my bed at the end of the night... (but i will be!)
hey vinnie, i'd like to hear ethiodesi comments about what you saw during your trip across canada ! =D and you better get to see me tonight.....
Man there is alot of comment spam I have noticed. Is there any way to remove it from the blogs?
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